It's been a while since I last blogged. Ironically, the vocal voice inside did not become the force in my mind to pen my thoughts in controversies and eventful 2014. The weakening performance of our own "world class" opposition to the unfortunate disappearance of MH370 does not go down well. Ahem, cine to think of it, associating bad air days with Malaysia only seems logical. MH17 was another Malaysia air disaster. Even the congested air space could not save them from that fate. The latest, AirAsia, a Malaysia based airline, became the latest air victim. Life is fragile.
This led me to think further, think harder to see if I had missed anything or had conveniently took things for granted for past year or years. With Chinese New Year around the corner, it just occurred to me that I had only visited my grandmother once a year, and that's CNY. Reduced to a mere one day from spending weeks during childhood. Things had changed... after marriage. I had spent more of my CNY in Malaysia than ever before. Comparatively, I just had to, I visited my partner's grandmother far more often than I do for my own. Sadly, I think she doesn't agree with this.
In me, I treasure kinship deeply. And it is because of this emotional attachment that I get very sensitive over reactions with regards to this. After so many years of marriage, I still do not get the feeling that my partner understands this. I can totally appreciate that she do not get overly sensitive on this since she could totally forget her parents' birthdays or even belittling the celebrations process, although this is something I do not agree. Regardless, I guess, I tried to talk. But nope. She is not listening and jumps to conclusions before I can broach the matter further. I chose to believe that taking a step back would create the space for harmony. But, this remains as a potential trigger for divorce.
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